The Lie

I like to call Satan a sneaky little bastard, because that is what he is. Lately he's been trying to decieve me with a lie straight from the Garden of Eden. You know the one that God is not good and is holding out on you. The sad thing is that he doesn't really need to change his tactics, because they worked on Eve, and sometimes I trip up and believe the same thing too.

Here's how he works it on me. I absolutely LOVE lots of things about my life right now. I am finally in a career field that I can see myself settling into for the long haul. It challenges me to no end, and I've lost more sleep than in my college days, but this gives me life.

But this wasn't the way I expected my life to play out.

I figured like most other girls, I'd get a ring by spring my senior year in college. I remember the birthday I sat in my car journaling on the college campus realizing, that ain't gonna happen. I will celebrate a significant birthday this year, and last time I checked I'm still single. I never planned on marriage and kids being later in life, but that's probably the way things will go down.

This year I think I've had to replace every major thing I own. My car, my cell phone, my computer, and my camera all bit the dust. Most people experience this type of thing right out of college. They get into the real world and have to upgrade. Well, I went from college to living overseas so I feel like I'm a bit delayed in all of this. So here I am living with the fam, often times living off of the fam, wondering how I got into this place. The lie is if I hadn't gone overseas I'd have had mad money saved up, and be standing on my own two feet financially.

The thing is, they are all lies. GOD IS GOOD. He is not holding out on me. My life has unfolded the way it has because it is all a part of God's divine plan. The enemy's goal is to get me doubt God and stop trusting Him. I intend to stop looking at that shiny fruit and resisting the temptation to take a bite!