And so it begins

Today I was riding the bus reading a book about a teacher’s experiences overseas. At one point that wasn’t really nostalgic I felt my throat clam up and I started blinking fast to keep the tears at bay…… Yes, friends it is that time again.

I’ve been so at peace with where I’m at and what God is doing in my heart. Yet I’ve also known that it’s time to start saying good-bye. I’m so looking forward to so many things back in America (can we say clothes that fit, and getting my hair DONE!!!), but I’m going to miss life here like nothing else! Snaps I can’t even type a sentence without taking a break to grab a Kleenex.

So yeeeeaaaah, I’m a bit sad, and the tears have started to fall. I know they’ll continue to fall for quite some time. I’m one of those emotional ones who just kind of lets it all hang out when I cry. No polite sniffling behind Kleenexes for me! So, bring on the Kleenex, and I’ll let the tears fall. I’m happy that there are people I love enough to cry over when I leave them. I’ve been really lucky and blessed to have led the life I’ve lived for the past few years. It’s been a crazy journey I never thought I’d be on, yet here I am, cruising down the highway at incredible speed realizing that all the memories and moments from the past two years are quickly fading in my rearview mirror as my exit rapidly approaches. For a while I fought the inevitable. I didn’t want to leave, felt rejection and wondered what I’d done wrong. I know now I’m where I’m supposed to be, and I’m excited about the next stage, but I’m also sad for what I’ll be leaving behind.

Bittersweet, life is so very bittersweet.

I know that God is good, and He’s in control and it will all be okay, but it doesn’t make the grieving process any shorter. So I’ll throw my arms wide open and embrace it! Here’s to letting the tears fall, unashamedly!