Roller Coaster Ride

My computer stopped working on Saturday morning. I shouldn't have been devastated, but I was. My computer is not my life, but it is a lot of things

My music
My movies
My way to talk with my family
How I do my job
How I manage my finances
How I chat with friends
What I use to write
How I listen to podcasts
How I keep in touch with the world

One machine shouldn't have such power in my life.

Oh but it does.

I think more than just the computer breaking it was the thought that it would stay broken. August was a brutal month. I was really hoping for September to be better. Not seeing the little blue light on my laptop that tells me it's on, sent me tumbling. I was afraid that September would be worse than August, and I'd stay in this murky pit of despair.

Fear and despair are a dangerous duo.

Just 30 minutes ago, the little blue light came back on.

I'm cautiously hopeful.

Hope - the feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best